{"id":1187,"date":"2024-08-26T16:05:04","date_gmt":"2024-08-26T16:05:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/?p=1187"},"modified":"2024-08-26T16:05:05","modified_gmt":"2024-08-26T16:05:05","slug":"requiem","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/2024\/08\/26\/requiem\/","title":{"rendered":"Requiem"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"800\" height=\"533\" src=\"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2024\/06\/poem128.jpg\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-311\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2024\/06\/poem128.jpg 800w, http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2024\/06\/poem128-300x200.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/2\/2024\/06\/poem128-768x512.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p>They say your heart aches.<br>Mine doesn&#8217;t. My back does.<br>There is an uncomfortable feeling in my spine.<br>It doesn&#8217;t hurt, exactly, I just know it is there every second.<br>Tears occasionally leak from my eyes, like pus from a wound.<br>They have no meaning and bring no relief.<br>My mind is desperately searching for something:<br>words, feelings, escape &#8211;<br>but there is nothing there.<br>Just a body:<br>stupid,<br>mute,<br>incomprehensible.<br>Experience unmitigated,<br>voiceless scream,<br>feeling that has no name:<br>not sadness,<br>not pain,<br>not anger &#8211;<br>nothing eating at my bones,<br>squeezing my tear-ducts,<br>stripping off words,<br>exposing the emptiness inside and out.<br>My thoughts go into familiar grooves<br>and then slide off again \u2013 into nothing\u2026<br>I feel old.<br>I feel chilly with understanding<br>that most things just are.<br>Not for something.<br>Not because of something.<br>They are \u2013 and there is the end to it.<br>Here.<br>Now.<br>It.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>They say your heart aches.Mine doesn&#8217;t. My back does.There is an uncomfortable feeling in my spine.It doesn&#8217;t hurt, exactly, I just know it is there every second.Tears occasionally leak from my eyes, like pus from a wound.They have no meaning and bring no relief.My mind is desperately searching for something:words, feelings, escape &#8211;but there is [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"inline_featured_image":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[197,225,32,23,224],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1187"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1187"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1187\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1188,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1187\/revisions\/1188"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1187"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1187"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.scarletline.com\/ashepherd\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1187"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}